Notes to Myself-Me
This is probably the boldest and most honest note I have ever posted on the Blog...This is one of those notes that one writes in your absolutely private diary and ensures that its torn before anyone reads it...
But I had this urge to blog about it...coz I had hidden it from myself for so long that I wanted to unhide it now not just from myself but everyone...
Something happened last night that cleared my head about a lot of things, about myself....not the dark side of me..but Me
1) I am selfish-very selfish
2) I take more than I give-in most aspects
3) I Am Money Minded
4) I am a dependent person
5) I am demanding in a relationship- very
6) I end up controlling others lives
7) I am rude and mean and hurt others to seek revenge
8) I am short-tempered and hurt others with my words.
9) I squabble over petty things in life and am unreasonable
10) I am insecure
This is Me. Sorry. Not sorry for being me--but for how me would have hurt those who are with me.
Thats why I probably have never truely been anyone's friend...Not sure if I would be able to love someone like me...but there are others who claim they do and I believe them....
I wanted to be a friend and ended up being a boss
I wanted to be a friend and ended up being a Advisor
I wanted to be a friend and ended up being a Wife.
Its nice to finally see things clearly...and this is not a self-pity post...just my first attempt to be honest to myself before I lose the courage.
I dont intend to end this note by saying that you will shortly see a Me-Part 2 which will be a different version of me...coz I am not sure if I can and want to change any of it. No, am aso not saying...this is Me-take it or leave it....
Some stuff I will change, others no, still others Dunno...
Only time will tell.
7 Comments:
Although perhaps I have not known you long enough - you have been an excellent friend to me (although I have not been subjected to your revenge taking side... thankfully... just yet :))
Keep your chin up gurl. Nobody is perfect. If we all listed out our negative qualities, we would all appear to be bitches. And sometimes we act in a certain way with some people which may not define our persona on the whole... I hope you understand what I am trying to say...
Thx Nids!
And dont worry my chin is as up as it ever was:-)
Sometimes life has its revealing moments and guess this blog is just one of them...in full honesty..!
Maybe sometime I will write a list of positives next..though that will take 2 blogs probably!!:-)
glad to see you are back!
- blogger formerly known as bharath
yeah!
Am back and well yes remember its Bharat!..
I still have ur link on my blog..remember!
Take it easy, ET! You have just described notes of a human being to one's inner self. I think we are all like this only .. Chill maadi and start working ;). I think you're not used to such breaks from work :))
You know wot... U might have listed 10 things that came to ur mind but i would put down the following
11. U have the guts to face the truth
12. U r honest... absolutely honest
...and 11 and 12 for me eclipses 1 to 10...so as Nidhi rightly said, chin up girl...
:-)
- A tormentor called Jupe
aka
The most tormented
Damn!!!
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